Prologue to my future

Prior to reading this, just know, I am merely talking about my beliefs. Don't take offense to anything I talk about; if you do, then simply get the fuck off of my blog.

Before I can talk about what I want to do in life, I should try to explain how I see life anyway. Already I am in a corner and must make a decision of what I want to do with my life, leaving me with no room in life for enjoyment. I am trying not to sound too pathetic, but this world is just like that. WE shouldn't be crammed into jobs we don't belong in. We should do exactly what we want at every turn of the way. If I wanted to travel the country playing my guitar every step of the way, or sleep in meadows, I should. I shouldn't have to worry about money, trespassing onto meadows, or other hateful people. The people in this world are not nice. Well they are, but only in a sense. Since the beginning of every ones life, we have been programmed and brainwashed to believe in morals, society, and other very pseudo standards. There is no truth. This is a world we just happen to be living on, so anything we find valuable, is only so because we make it. Money does not stand for anything, but we made it so. There are no morals, only a generally agreed perception.

This world is blinded by materialism, capitalism, and segregation. Not by race, but ideas and sects. Especially religion. OK, I have NO problem with religious or political individuals in the world, I just don't agree with them. We as a society judge people by their clothing, upbringing, surroundings, lifestyle. But these are only standards we have come to see. We should in fact see everyone as a person equal to ourselves. There is no scale or universal truth. Everything we know, including opinions, is a mere myth that we made up ourselves. Over the past millenia, generations have been taught to think a certain way. It's all bullshit. Break away from this fake trend. Live life only how you want. Which I must say is impossible.

In this world, we must pay for everything. A place to sleep, eat, to live! We have been reduced to paying for life. Fuck all of this shit people. I want to be a nomad. I want to live life all over. This civilization needs to live together. To work together. We need to do exactly what we want, and survive together out of pure charity and love.

We should return to huts and have a simple but true society like that. No hierarchy, but unity. We are not communist, we are not democratic. We are free. We are anarchy. Anarchy is not chaos, it is not death. That thought process has been imprinted in every one's mind. Even now, if I think of it, a subtle image comes up of fire and destruction, which would be true. If this society lost all sense of authority, there would be a period of chaos. But we would not kill everyone else. If we took away police men right now, that would not make me kill you or my peers. That is a fucking insult to our race. Anarchy is freedom. It is fucking freedom to life, and the only way everyone can be happy. If someone wants to be a fucking doctor, be a fucking doctor. If you want to fish, FUCKING FISH. There should not be a society that looks down on people who don't follow the "status quo" Fuck High school Musical, and fuck the government. We need to live for ourselves. Why live so close to heaven, if we never reach out. Of course I'm talking about a utopia, but its the only society that makes sense to me. Just live however you find right.

Boredom

The only reason I made this god forsaken blog is because I want to post comments on my friends' blog. But if I have to have a profile, I might as well write, not that anyone will read this.

Everyday I wake up at 5am, get dressed instantly, take out my retainers (I would die if I had crooked teeth again) make a breakfast I have to eat in five minutes, get in my dads truck, and we drive to work. There it changes, but no matter what, I am tired and I have to do physical work. We either dig or pave driveways and parking lots, but due to the fucking economy, we haven't had any work. I come home no sooner than 3pm, and continue my night. Though lately I have been able to see friends more often, and further futile relationships, it's the same!

I mean fucking a, I pretty much have the same breakfast, lunch, and dinner. I wear the same clothes to work and casually. Casually I will wear plain black shirts, and jeans. I don't need anymore, I like the color black, and it's cheap. But fuck, every aspect of my day is the same. During school it's just as bad, but at least there are more people to talk to.

Otherwise, all year round, every day is pretty much the same to me, so I lose track of time and weeks. I remember everything I've done, but I no longer have a perception of a timeline. Everyday is the same, and the only upcoming change is college. I am completey full of shit, annoyance, and boredom.

(I love bitching) so fuck you