So I haven’t posted anything for a while. So fucking what n one reads this shit anyway. Aye you Rachel...
I have a new girlfriend. Her name is Jhanelle. She was going out with my best friend for 2 years and 8 months but now he left her a few weeks ago for another girl. Whatever. And now I am with her fuck I, man code? He called me the other day o el me about what she likes. I think he’s over it. Since then, school and life has been happier and easier. So good shit. I have a few concerts and parties coming up, but it’s funny cause I am actually more excited about the picnic that me and Jhanelle have planned for this Saturday. We were walking in a park and found a pathway that lead under a ridge. From there we found another path that lead along the creek, and eventually it opened up t one of the most beautiful fields I have ever seen. I’m in school so I’m being yelled at fuck them. Have fun reading this Rachel.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Fuckin' parties man
Basically work is like any other day. Then I had a guitar lesson.
We got to talk about girls my age and one night stands.
I love my guitar teacher.
Then I drove to the fucking mall to meet up with some people. There were random fucking people there too that I really did not want to see. Just annoying preppy fucks who stroll around judging everyone they see. But they like me? they waved. .. . ..? so im assuming.
I ate a pretzel. That was a dinner.
It was a good pretzel.
Now my friend is offering me acid? I am kinda tempted, but know i shouldn't. But dude...Im tired of reading about fucked up things, or seeing them in movies. I want to see them with my own eyes... but shit man, acid is pretty heavy. Whatever shall I do? No one reads this,
SO im talking to myself. Kinda depressing. but fuck it.
We got to talk about girls my age and one night stands.
I love my guitar teacher.
Then I drove to the fucking mall to meet up with some people. There were random fucking people there too that I really did not want to see. Just annoying preppy fucks who stroll around judging everyone they see. But they like me? they waved. .. . ..? so im assuming.
I ate a pretzel. That was a dinner.
It was a good pretzel.
Now my friend is offering me acid? I am kinda tempted, but know i shouldn't. But dude...Im tired of reading about fucked up things, or seeing them in movies. I want to see them with my own eyes... but shit man, acid is pretty heavy. Whatever shall I do? No one reads this,
SO im talking to myself. Kinda depressing. but fuck it.
Monday, August 3, 2009
Return
My friend has returned from a Meditteranian cruise. As mean as it is, I was half-hoping his cruise was the one that was infected with swine flu. Im over at his house checking my email and writing a blog no one reads, OH FUN. fucker.
I met a girl named Ashley and she intrigued me. I love meeting new people, I want to know everyone...sort've. SO I plan to ask her to a dinner or some shit to get to know her. Basically platonic, but there is no way I can ask that doesn't suggest otherwise. FUCK.
Rachel showed me a movie that made my inner child laugh, and made me giggle. Spirited Away is such a beautiful piece. PLEASE WATCH. P.S. Rachel's dogs are adorable.
I went to a neighboring highschool to have dinner with a few friends. I met their gay colorguard instructor. Very nice, but akward, He's into asians. So he kept asking if I was single... hahah At least someone is interested now aday. So I love/hate this shit. I go days, purposfully blinding myself, so I can live "normally?" and not worry about the world, and only care about immediate personal events. But then days later wake up and smell the disgusting coffee. This world is fucking doomed. Even if my UTOPIA? came true, this society is sooooo far up its own fucking ass and wallet, that it was explode, because tehre is no way now to revert this world to my own fantasy. So from that, the world is pointless. But I want to live. sort've. What do i do. fuck it
I met a girl named Ashley and she intrigued me. I love meeting new people, I want to know everyone...sort've. SO I plan to ask her to a dinner or some shit to get to know her. Basically platonic, but there is no way I can ask that doesn't suggest otherwise. FUCK.
Rachel showed me a movie that made my inner child laugh, and made me giggle. Spirited Away is such a beautiful piece. PLEASE WATCH. P.S. Rachel's dogs are adorable.
I went to a neighboring highschool to have dinner with a few friends. I met their gay colorguard instructor. Very nice, but akward, He's into asians. So he kept asking if I was single... hahah At least someone is interested now aday. So I love/hate this shit. I go days, purposfully blinding myself, so I can live "normally?" and not worry about the world, and only care about immediate personal events. But then days later wake up and smell the disgusting coffee. This world is fucking doomed. Even if my UTOPIA? came true, this society is sooooo far up its own fucking ass and wallet, that it was explode, because tehre is no way now to revert this world to my own fantasy. So from that, the world is pointless. But I want to live. sort've. What do i do. fuck it
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Prologue to my future
Prior to reading this, just know, I am merely talking about my beliefs. Don't take offense to anything I talk about; if you do, then simply get the fuck off of my blog.
Before I can talk about what I want to do in life, I should try to explain how I see life anyway. Already I am in a corner and must make a decision of what I want to do with my life, leaving me with no room in life for enjoyment. I am trying not to sound too pathetic, but this world is just like that. WE shouldn't be crammed into jobs we don't belong in. We should do exactly what we want at every turn of the way. If I wanted to travel the country playing my guitar every step of the way, or sleep in meadows, I should. I shouldn't have to worry about money, trespassing onto meadows, or other hateful people. The people in this world are not nice. Well they are, but only in a sense. Since the beginning of every ones life, we have been programmed and brainwashed to believe in morals, society, and other very pseudo standards. There is no truth. This is a world we just happen to be living on, so anything we find valuable, is only so because we make it. Money does not stand for anything, but we made it so. There are no morals, only a generally agreed perception.
This world is blinded by materialism, capitalism, and segregation. Not by race, but ideas and sects. Especially religion. OK, I have NO problem with religious or political individuals in the world, I just don't agree with them. We as a society judge people by their clothing, upbringing, surroundings, lifestyle. But these are only standards we have come to see. We should in fact see everyone as a person equal to ourselves. There is no scale or universal truth. Everything we know, including opinions, is a mere myth that we made up ourselves. Over the past millenia, generations have been taught to think a certain way. It's all bullshit. Break away from this fake trend. Live life only how you want. Which I must say is impossible.
In this world, we must pay for everything. A place to sleep, eat, to live! We have been reduced to paying for life. Fuck all of this shit people. I want to be a nomad. I want to live life all over. This civilization needs to live together. To work together. We need to do exactly what we want, and survive together out of pure charity and love.
We should return to huts and have a simple but true society like that. No hierarchy, but unity. We are not communist, we are not democratic. We are free. We are anarchy. Anarchy is not chaos, it is not death. That thought process has been imprinted in every one's mind. Even now, if I think of it, a subtle image comes up of fire and destruction, which would be true. If this society lost all sense of authority, there would be a period of chaos. But we would not kill everyone else. If we took away police men right now, that would not make me kill you or my peers. That is a fucking insult to our race. Anarchy is freedom. It is fucking freedom to life, and the only way everyone can be happy. If someone wants to be a fucking doctor, be a fucking doctor. If you want to fish, FUCKING FISH. There should not be a society that looks down on people who don't follow the "status quo" Fuck High school Musical, and fuck the government. We need to live for ourselves. Why live so close to heaven, if we never reach out. Of course I'm talking about a utopia, but its the only society that makes sense to me. Just live however you find right.
Before I can talk about what I want to do in life, I should try to explain how I see life anyway. Already I am in a corner and must make a decision of what I want to do with my life, leaving me with no room in life for enjoyment. I am trying not to sound too pathetic, but this world is just like that. WE shouldn't be crammed into jobs we don't belong in. We should do exactly what we want at every turn of the way. If I wanted to travel the country playing my guitar every step of the way, or sleep in meadows, I should. I shouldn't have to worry about money, trespassing onto meadows, or other hateful people. The people in this world are not nice. Well they are, but only in a sense. Since the beginning of every ones life, we have been programmed and brainwashed to believe in morals, society, and other very pseudo standards. There is no truth. This is a world we just happen to be living on, so anything we find valuable, is only so because we make it. Money does not stand for anything, but we made it so. There are no morals, only a generally agreed perception.
This world is blinded by materialism, capitalism, and segregation. Not by race, but ideas and sects. Especially religion. OK, I have NO problem with religious or political individuals in the world, I just don't agree with them. We as a society judge people by their clothing, upbringing, surroundings, lifestyle. But these are only standards we have come to see. We should in fact see everyone as a person equal to ourselves. There is no scale or universal truth. Everything we know, including opinions, is a mere myth that we made up ourselves. Over the past millenia, generations have been taught to think a certain way. It's all bullshit. Break away from this fake trend. Live life only how you want. Which I must say is impossible.
In this world, we must pay for everything. A place to sleep, eat, to live! We have been reduced to paying for life. Fuck all of this shit people. I want to be a nomad. I want to live life all over. This civilization needs to live together. To work together. We need to do exactly what we want, and survive together out of pure charity and love.
We should return to huts and have a simple but true society like that. No hierarchy, but unity. We are not communist, we are not democratic. We are free. We are anarchy. Anarchy is not chaos, it is not death. That thought process has been imprinted in every one's mind. Even now, if I think of it, a subtle image comes up of fire and destruction, which would be true. If this society lost all sense of authority, there would be a period of chaos. But we would not kill everyone else. If we took away police men right now, that would not make me kill you or my peers. That is a fucking insult to our race. Anarchy is freedom. It is fucking freedom to life, and the only way everyone can be happy. If someone wants to be a fucking doctor, be a fucking doctor. If you want to fish, FUCKING FISH. There should not be a society that looks down on people who don't follow the "status quo" Fuck High school Musical, and fuck the government. We need to live for ourselves. Why live so close to heaven, if we never reach out. Of course I'm talking about a utopia, but its the only society that makes sense to me. Just live however you find right.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Boredom
The only reason I made this god forsaken blog is because I want to post comments on my friends' blog. But if I have to have a profile, I might as well write, not that anyone will read this.
Everyday I wake up at 5am, get dressed instantly, take out my retainers (I would die if I had crooked teeth again) make a breakfast I have to eat in five minutes, get in my dads truck, and we drive to work. There it changes, but no matter what, I am tired and I have to do physical work. We either dig or pave driveways and parking lots, but due to the fucking economy, we haven't had any work. I come home no sooner than 3pm, and continue my night. Though lately I have been able to see friends more often, and further futile relationships, it's the same!
I mean fucking a, I pretty much have the same breakfast, lunch, and dinner. I wear the same clothes to work and casually. Casually I will wear plain black shirts, and jeans. I don't need anymore, I like the color black, and it's cheap. But fuck, every aspect of my day is the same. During school it's just as bad, but at least there are more people to talk to.
Otherwise, all year round, every day is pretty much the same to me, so I lose track of time and weeks. I remember everything I've done, but I no longer have a perception of a timeline. Everyday is the same, and the only upcoming change is college. I am completey full of shit, annoyance, and boredom.
(I love bitching) so fuck you
Everyday I wake up at 5am, get dressed instantly, take out my retainers (I would die if I had crooked teeth again) make a breakfast I have to eat in five minutes, get in my dads truck, and we drive to work. There it changes, but no matter what, I am tired and I have to do physical work. We either dig or pave driveways and parking lots, but due to the fucking economy, we haven't had any work. I come home no sooner than 3pm, and continue my night. Though lately I have been able to see friends more often, and further futile relationships, it's the same!
I mean fucking a, I pretty much have the same breakfast, lunch, and dinner. I wear the same clothes to work and casually. Casually I will wear plain black shirts, and jeans. I don't need anymore, I like the color black, and it's cheap. But fuck, every aspect of my day is the same. During school it's just as bad, but at least there are more people to talk to.
Otherwise, all year round, every day is pretty much the same to me, so I lose track of time and weeks. I remember everything I've done, but I no longer have a perception of a timeline. Everyday is the same, and the only upcoming change is college. I am completey full of shit, annoyance, and boredom.
(I love bitching) so fuck you
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