Fuckin' parties man

Basically work is like any other day. Then I had a guitar lesson.

We got to talk about girls my age and one night stands.

I love my guitar teacher.

Then I drove to the fucking mall to meet up with some people. There were random fucking people there too that I really did not want to see. Just annoying preppy fucks who stroll around judging everyone they see. But they like me? they waved. .. . ..? so im assuming.

I ate a pretzel. That was a dinner.

It was a good pretzel.



Now my friend is offering me acid? I am kinda tempted, but know i shouldn't. But dude...Im tired of reading about fucked up things, or seeing them in movies. I want to see them with my own eyes... but shit man, acid is pretty heavy. Whatever shall I do? No one reads this,

SO im talking to myself. Kinda depressing. but fuck it.

Return

My friend has returned from a Meditteranian cruise. As mean as it is, I was half-hoping his cruise was the one that was infected with swine flu. Im over at his house checking my email and writing a blog no one reads, OH FUN. fucker.

I met a girl named Ashley and she intrigued me. I love meeting new people, I want to know everyone...sort've. SO I plan to ask her to a dinner or some shit to get to know her. Basically platonic, but there is no way I can ask that doesn't suggest otherwise. FUCK.

Rachel showed me a movie that made my inner child laugh, and made me giggle. Spirited Away is such a beautiful piece. PLEASE WATCH. P.S. Rachel's dogs are adorable.

I went to a neighboring highschool to have dinner with a few friends. I met their gay colorguard instructor. Very nice, but akward, He's into asians. So he kept asking if I was single... hahah At least someone is interested now aday. So I love/hate this shit. I go days, purposfully blinding myself, so I can live "normally?" and not worry about the world, and only care about immediate personal events. But then days later wake up and smell the disgusting coffee. This world is fucking doomed. Even if my UTOPIA? came true, this society is sooooo far up its own fucking ass and wallet, that it was explode, because tehre is no way now to revert this world to my own fantasy. So from that, the world is pointless. But I want to live. sort've. What do i do. fuck it